Saturday, 19 August 2023

The cherry tree (செர்ரி மரம்) by A. Muttulingam

 

  
A. Muttulingam
(Author)
     R. Shanmuga Sundaram
       (Translator) 
Translated from Tamil into English by Mr R. Shanmuga Sundaram, a Chennai based retired IT professional.

Today is the cash reconciliation day. We will combine my income and what dad gets from his gardening work and count them. Then, dad will go to the bank and pay the due for the loan. At that time, he will look at me oddly. It will disturb and do something to my heart.

I have not accomplished anything substantial in life. There is no point in knowing my name. I have not achieved any milestone in my studies, intelligence or beauty. I should talk only about my sisters. What they would become was already inside their bodies even then. I only did not know. The eldest of my sister is Samantha. Her job required a special kind of expertise. It is doubtful whether there would be even a hundred like her on this earth.

The second sister’s name is Pamela. If you line up the lazy persons of the world, she will be the third one in the second row of the first file. As to her beauty, it was ordinary. She will touch her books hesitatingly as if touching a worm. She is married to an ultra-rich person in Chicago, where you have to bend your body backwards to look at the tall buildings. She does not have to do anything. She will change her dress four times a day. To please her husband in a variety of new dresses is her only duty.

The last sister is Rebecca. She is a beauty who will seduce anyone in a second. Her smile will blossom like blood slowly draining. Eyelashes that extend beyond her face. Her neck size and the waist size are almost the same. Like a good swordsman wielding his sword in all directions, she will deploy her charm all around. No matter how one exaggerates her beauty, it would be an understatement. She got married only recently. She really struggled to choose one among her four determined suitors.

Our home has two rooms. Since the right wall of the house is common with the house of the neighbour, there is no window on that wall. The cherry tree stood in front of the car park. An old tree, dad says it is at least 100 years old. The neighbour does not like the tree at all. He keeps complaining to the municipality that it is going to fall any time on his house and will kill him and is waiting for their decision. I am waiting for the month of March. Only then the cherry tree will blossom.

I have a lot to say about my first sister. She married her assistant and lives in a thirty-storey building in New York. Her apartment is on the upper floor. Her office is in the lower floor. The husband and wife work at least 18 hours with multiple assistants. You can’t catch Samantha in an emergency. Words will wear out her mouth is her belief. You can reach her only by SMS.

To restore very old, but valuable books with skill and artistry without compromising their integrity is her job. She would get mostly books in English. Since her husband knows Hebrew, she would get Hebrew books too.  If the British museum gets an ancient book, immediately Samantha would fly down there. If the head of the Israel National Library announces that an antique book has been found, she would be there the next day. She will never visit dad or me who are just two hours away.

Dad and I are the only ones in the house. Even from a young age, I desired to fill my head with knowledge. It never worked out. I prepared for CPA and passed the examination. Clients came looking for me. Initially, I did their income tax returns for free as a practice for me. Now, I have made it my profession by converting one of the rooms into an office.

There was a single large picture that was hung in the parlour of our home. In that, all four of us are on display. When dad took the picture with his camera, I was 14 years old. My eldest sister was 13. Next one was 12 and the last one was 11. We the four sisters have already come to the decision by then. Even if we have separate Facebook accounts, this was the profile picture. We cannot remove it for any reason whatever. I would receive questions every day. Who are you? Are you this one or that one? I will never answer. Most questions would be about who was the one on the leftmost. It was Rebecca.

She has quite a few friends in Facebook. They fell in love without meeting her face to face. Maybe she would have hinted something to them, can’t say. She likes the attention from the men. She used to say that there are many poets in her admirers. All of them plagiarised poems. ‘If my exhale my breath, his lungs fill, it seems!’. Another one will say ‘Your arrival is as beautiful as 100 cranes landing’. ‘Like an army encircling a town, he will enfold and suffocate me. He describes me as a filled wine glass. But he drinks the wine like a desert camel in a single gulp’.

Rebecca was not married then. She brought her latest boyfriend home once. She will keep the cell phone in her palm and speak holding it near her nose as if sniffing it. When she winked, I understood that she was going to do something naughty. I looked at her boyfriend. Hair grown long and cut sharply. A jacket of soft leather. Shiny shoes. Charming face. If he scrubs his face a couple of times, he would become more handsome. With his mouth like split oyster shell, he was taking in Rebecca. When he was about to move the teacup to his lips, she suddenly lifted one leg and put it over the other. That movement was as if she was gripping something strongly with her thighs. He shuddered and split the tea on the floor. For the next half hour, he was on his knees wiping the floor.

When dad is around, I would be irritated as to why he still has not gone to work. Once he is gone, my heart would long for his return. A tension will grip me. That morning, an egg was spoilt. Dad sank into an inconsolable sadness. I said ‘it is just an egg’. ‘Just an egg? An egg white. A yolk’. It looked as if he was about to cry. He used to get angry for even little things. Now, he converts even a simple thing into a sad event.

Dad who used to come home tired in the evening was visibly excited that day.  The id card of his erstwhile company was around his neck. The front of his thick gardening clock will show what soup he had for lunch. ‘I saw a trillium flower today’ he said. ‘What is that?’ I asked. ‘It is a white flower with three petals. The plant will die if you pluck the flower. It is illegal to pluck in some countries. The exception of a flower, but it is beautiful’ he explained. Suddenly, he fell silent as his thoughts went elsewhere and his enthusiasm drained. Without looking me in the eye, he asked ‘Am I a good father to you?’. ‘Why do you doubt that dad?’. ‘All your younger sisters are married. Don’t you feel sad about that?’ ‘What sadness dad? The world is full of exceptions is something you have told us. The planet Venus near the earth rotates in the opposite direction unlike other planets’. 

In the months when income tax returns are prepared, I will have a flood of clients reaching out to me. I will complete their work promptly. They will also pay for the services. A new client came to visit one day. His lower lip and upper lip were of the same thickness. It was kind of attractive. His voice was deep as if there were ten persons in the room. I reconciled his income tax account. I also taught him techniques of how best to reduce tax in the coming years. When paying me, he gave me an enchanting look. And smiled kindly. He also promised to call. I waited. He did not turn up to do the next year’s income tax filing.

It was cash reconciliation day. Unexpectedly my second sister Pamela came to see me. She would not come without a reason. Last time, she came to announce that the finance minister had invited them for dinner. Dad had taken substantial loans for her education. She never took her studies seriously. She went around with boys. She will come home and shout at dad if he delayed sending her money. That day, she came in silently in a brick red car. Even as she entered, she wrinkled her nose as if there was a bad smell in the house. She looked around the house she had lived for 16 years as if it is something new. She was wearing a long, ash colored dress as if she was going for a dinner party, which was continuously slipping from her shoulder. She is an expert in selecting dresses in colors that highlight her eyes. A hairdo that would have set back a hairdresser at least two hours. Grey colored sandals with heels that gripped her feet tightly. She did not sit down. Like a revolving door, she neither came in nor went out but stood bobbing. Then she left as abruptly as she came.

Only after she went towards her car, I had a thought. Why did she come? She is not the kind who would visit me or dad because of an outpouring of compassion. While going, she stood on the driveway and clicked on the cell phone. The car automatically moved and stopped near her gently. Without turning, she got into the car and drove away. Only after she had gone, it occurred to me that she had come to show off her new Tesla car. When dad returned, I did not tell him about Pamela’s visit. I gave him the cash from my earnings. He counted it quietly and went to the bank to deposit it.

When there is no gardening work, dad will scrutinize the old wedding invitations of all and sundry. He has a collection of more than a hundred. Because of the hard gardening work he does, his wrists will always be swollen. He will tie ice bags on both hands and will play chess with himself. That day, he moved to the black king to B6 and looked as if looking at his opponent. The hair at the front part of his head receded and his wide brow shone. A vision that will invoke pity. How did mum elope with someone leaving behind him and four daughters? How deep that love should have been? I have seen one day dad kissing mum on her nape. ‘Did not mum love you dad?’ I asked. ‘Love will come to nothing in the end like soap that wears out gradually’. He turned the board and played for the white king. Once the game was over, I asked him who won. He replied that he won. I asked who lost. He replied for that too that it was he who lost. Almost like his life.

I think that was the last game of chess he played. He was slowly disappearing into his body. Some days, he forgot to go to work. When asked something, he stared on without answering. His gaze extended beyond me. One day, I asked him ‘Dad, what is your name?’. He was startled and looked as if I asked him to recite the multiplication table of sevens in the reverse order. Then he lifted up the id card hanging around his neck and read out his name to me. I was stunned.

The Facebook friend who had promised to meet me today was handsome in the picture. I have never given first priority to beauty. He talked to me over phone that was attractive to me. He begged me many times to tell him where I was in the picture. I did not disclose the information, but he said he had guessed it. I asked him how. He said it is the similarity between my voice and the picture. I asked him whether he can guess how my face will be now based on a picture that was taken ten years ago. He said yes.

He beseeched me many times that he will come to meet me. I kept delaying. But he never stopped troubling me. About a week ago, he left a message on the telephone. The telephone asked to me to press 11. I pressed. He wants to see me. He asked for a date. He asked me to imagine that he was an income tax client. The telephone asked to press 8 if I wanted to answer. To save the message, it asked me to press 9. To delete the message, it asked me to press 7. I pressed 7.

After a couple of days, there was an SMS from him. ‘The cherry tree in your house has bloomed beautifully’. I was astounded. ‘How did you know?’. ‘I checked it on Google’. Was he a nature lover? He must be a good person. He has not seen my face. He knows me just as the one who does income tax assessments. Can I trust him? I gave my consent to meet on 27th of March. I do not know whether he realized the importance of the date.

Today is the day he is supposed to come.

He said he would come at 10:30 in the morning. I have engineered such that no other clients were expected on that day. There were income tax files organized on the table. I straightened them. I hid the long stockings drying on the chair. I have told him almost all the details about me. I might have missed one or two details. After all, that is what that makes it interesting. I was ready. Only official dress. No makeup. A bit of eyeliner and a little extra lipstick. He should never realize that I have decked myself up for him.

The time was exactly 10:28. The sound of a car arriving and stopping was heard. I opened the window curtain slowly and looked out. He closed the car door. The light inside the car lit up. He waited until it switched off. He looked up. My heart started pumping. The winter was over and leaves started coming out on the trees. The cherry tree alone was full of light blue blossoms. There was not a single leaf. March 27 was the peak day for cherry trees. An abundance of flowers will bloom hiding the tree. The leaves would come out only after now. A tree which is an exception. He looked up and for a full minute stood there enjoying the flowers.

The sound of climbing stairs. After a few seconds, the calling bell sounded. I quickly adjusted my dress. I straightened the breathing tube so as not to stumble. I moved towards the door. The oxygen cylinder equipped with a chip followed me like a devoted dog. I collected myself, paused and thought about what was going to happen in the next minute. I put my left hand on the door handle and opened the door.

                                                    ***Ended***

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